Saturday, April 9, 2011

April again

There is so much I like and hate about April.

*Birthdays of people I love-Quinn and Brooklyn

*Spring-weather and flowers (even though it is snowing right now)

*Easter-watching the girls gather eggs and twirl in spring dresses

*Lawn care season-Les coming home after dark

*Brandon and Jen's anniversary (today)-so greatful to have her added to our family

*The anniversary of the day Quinn was killed in a car accident (tomorrow)- so thankful for temple blessings

So many good emotions mixed with a little sad. I am blaming it on the pregnancy hormones, but I have had a hard time not focusing on the bad lately. I hope writing it all down helps me realize that the wonderful memories and good times are much more important than the not so pleasant ones.

So glad my kids are in my life. It makes the hard times easier to get through. This was a conversation from this morning.

Addi-"Why is Mom crying?"

Les-"She just misses Uncle Quinn today (with his arm around me)."

Me-"I'd rather just stay in bed today. I don't want to go anywhere"

Addi-"Mom, it's not dark outside."

Me-"Addi, what does that have to do with anything?"

Addi-"It's not dark and there are no cows out in Payson so you don't have to stay in bed."

Les- (laughing) "Addi, Mom isn't scared to go outside she just wants to be sad."

Addi-"Oh, I hope I didn't make it worse" (starting to cry)

Me-"You never make it worse. You always make me laugh and make it better. I love you."

1 comment:

heidihim said...

that is awesome so cute! and sorry you had a rough day i cant imagine what that must feel like:( And how many more weeks until you find out the gender, i am dying over here!!!